by Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
In Chasing for Feeding My Soul With Certain Vibes, But … Failing: Essays About Duality, Romanian writer Adrian Gabriel Dumitru bares his longing, doubts, and internal contradictions in a collection that is part love letter, part philosophical inquiry. It is a work about chasing — an attempt to capture something invisible, ephemeral, magical — and about coming to terms with the fact that sometimes, even chasing can be a form of failing.
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Premise & tone
The book opens with a striking confession of inner tension:
“I try to understand myself. Analysing and defining all what I really want. Illusory believing … I actually know all … cause I know myself well.”
Dumitru describes how he exposes his desires and expectations, hoping for “beautiful vibes to overwhelm me,” yet acknowledging repeatedly that those ideal states often remain elusive.
The tone throughout is introspective, vulnerable, and poetic. There is no pretense of mastery — rather, the voice of someone deeply engaged in the struggle of being human, of wanting more, and of reconciling with failure.
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Core themes & motifs
1. Chasing & longing
At the heart of the book lies a restless pursuit: of connection, of magic, of emotional resonance beyond ordinary life. Dumitru chases not just people, but moods, possibilities, and transcendence.
2. Duality of hope and disillusion
Dumitru frequently juxtaposes hope and resignation, illustrating how the same mind can oscillate between craving and renouncement. He sees in the failure of vibes a mirror of deeper dualities: belief / doubt, appearance / essence.
3. Illusion & reality
Much of the book is concerned with how illusions shape our inner lives — illusions of knowing, of control, of love. He questions whether part of our suffering comes from believing too strongly in what cannot be sustained.
4. Self-therapy through writing
Dumitru frames his writing process as a form of internal therapy — a means of translating emotional tumult into language to better understand it.
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Why this book will resonate with English readers
• In a world saturated by polished images and filtered narratives, Chasing for Feeding My Soul offers a raw counterpoint: a person exposing longing, failure, and the tension between desire and disappointment.
• For readers who gravitate toward confessional essays, emotional memoirs, or philosophical introspection, this work stands out not just for what it says, but how it feels — as though you are reading someone’s internal monologue.
• The exploration of chasing — especially in modern emotional experience (romance, identity, personal growth) — is timely. Many understand what it is to long for “something more,” even if that “something” remains vague or illusory.
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Reception & highlights
On Google Play, the book holds a 5.0 star rating (based on 8 reviews). Reviewers praise its depth and poetic quality, saying lines like:
“A poetic journey that fed a craving I didn’t realize existed — my soul thanks Adrian for the nourishment.”
Users note that each short essay “echoed differently through my heart, like fragments of melody you don’t want to forget.”
Apple Books lists the work as 132 pages, published in 2025, categorized under “Literature & Fiction” and emphasizes the duality, longing, and introspection in its preview.
The Google Play description highlights how Dumitru allows “everything to happen … just as I want,” yet often the “beautiful vibes” he expects never come — which becomes a recurring tension.
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Where to access / purchase
Here are the official, legal links for readers:
• Google Play Books: Chasing for Feeding My Soul With Certain Vibes, But … Failing — ebook listing, 132 pages, 5.0 ★ rating
• Apple Books: Chasing for Feeding My Soul With Certain Vibes, But … Failing — listing, preview, publisher info
• Amazon (Kindle / eBook edition): Chasing for Feeding My Soul With Certain Vibes, But … Failing: Essays About Duality
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